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20080729 ;

7/29/2008 11:30:00 PM

Developing a structure

"Structure is the underlying framework that gives the object or concept its shape." After 1 whole bloody hour I'm still stuck at this sentence. Tomorrow is my one and only test for the semester (not considering Korean 103) and I'm still blogging here. 11 tutorials notes to go through, and I'm not even done with any one of them, not even.. 1/1000 of them.

SO. WHY. AM. I. STILL. HERE.

I'm trying to be lame I'm trying to be funny I'm trying to be........................................................

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Mahmah black sheep have you any wool?
No sir no sir nothing for you.

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20080721 ;

7/21/2008 11:10:00 AM

I'm 18 now!

Not really excited now. Was quite hyper at around 12am because I got spammed on Msn by many people. Will be meeting Doll, Zenna and Atq later.

Okay I would like to say goodbye to.. M18 bans. My fats.

And hi to money, more good looking boys, and happiness to everyone I love. And.. Horsey. OOPSSS.

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20080714 ;

7/14/2008 10:23:00 PM

→o1. Bold what is true about you.
→o2. Underline what is half true.
→o3. Italicize what you wish were true about you.
→o4. Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
→o5. Tag five LJ friends.
→o6. Ask me anything about the bold/italicized/underlined.

• I miss somebody right now.
• I don't watch much TV these days.
• I own lots of books.
• I wear glasses or contact lenses.
• I love to play video games.
• I've tried marijuana.
• I've watched porn movies. (LOL)
• I have been the psycho ex in a past relationship.
• I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
• I curse sometimes.
• I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
• I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
• I have broken someone's bones.
• I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
• I hate the rain.
• I'm paranoid at times.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (Well, depends though)
• I need/want money right now.
• I love sushi.
• I talk really, really fast.
• I have fresh breath in the morning.
• I have long hair.
• I have lost money in Las Vegas.
• I have at least one sibling.
• I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
• I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
• I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
• I like the way that I look.
• I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (Actually I'm not too sure.. OOPS)
• I am usually pessimistic.
• I have a lot of mood swings.
• I think prostitution should be legalized.
• I have slept with a roommate.
• I have a hidden talent. (I'm good at observing people)
• I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
• I have a lot of friends.
• I have pecked someone of the same sex.
• I enjoy talking on the phone.
• I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
• I love to shop and/or window shop.
• I'm obsessed with my Xanga or LiveJournal. (My selling posts.. HAHA)
• I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
• I'm a pretty good dancer.
• I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
• I have a cell phone.
• I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
• I've rejected someone before.
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
• I want to have children in the future.
• I have changed a diaper before.
• I have a lot to learn.
• I am shy around the opposite sex.
• I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
• I have at least 5 away messages saved.
• I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
• I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
• I own the "South Park" movie.
• I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or LiveJournal.
• I enjoy some country music.
• I would die for my best friend(s). (Maybe yes, maybe no, I will only know when it really happen)
• I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
• I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
• Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
• I have dated a close friend's ex.
• I am happy at this moment.
• I'm obsessed with guys. (All my friends will start spamming my tagboard if I didn't highlight this)
• Democrat.
• Conservative Republican.
• I am punk rockish.
• I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
• I study for tests most of the time. (At least I read through.. =X)
• I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
• I can work on a car.
• I love my job.
• I am comfortable with who I am right now.
• I have more than just my ears pierced.
• I walk barefoot wherever I can.
• I have jumped off a bridge.
• I love sea turtles.
• I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
• I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
• I am proficient on a musical instrument.
• I hate office jobs.
• I went to college out of state.
• I am adopted.
• I am a pyromaniac.
• I have thrown up from crying too much. (I only cried after I've thrown up :o)
• I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (That's why I ended up hating that person more)
• I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
• I adore bright colors.
• I usually like covers better than originals.
• I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebee's and T.G.I. Fridays.
• I can pick up things with my toes.
• I can't whistle.
• I have ridden/owned a horse. (Yay my Primary 6 Malaysia trip :D)
• I still have every journal I've ever written in.
• I talk in my sleep.
• I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
• I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
• I wear a toe ring.
• I have a tattoo.
• I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
• I am a caffeine junkie.
• I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
• If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
• I've cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
• I have been to over 15 conventions.
• I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
• I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
• I'm an artist.
• I am ambidextrous.
• I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
• If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
• I have terrible teeth.
• I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
• I have more friends on the Internet than in real life.
• I have lived in either three different states or countries.
• I am extremely flexible.
• I want to own my own business.
• I smoke.
• I spend way too much time on the computer.
• Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
• Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
• I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
• I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
• I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
• I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
• I have played strip poker with someone else before.
• I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
• I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
• I can't stand being alone.
• I have at least one obsession at any given time.
• I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
• I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
• I'm a judgmental asshole.
• I'm a HUGE drama queen.
• I have traveled on more than one continent.
• I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
• I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
• I can speak more than one language.
• I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
• I would rather read than watch TV.
• I like reading fact more than fiction.
• I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
• I have no piercings.
• I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
• I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
• I've been married and am now divorced.
• There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
• I like most animals better than most people.
• I own a collection of retro game consoles.
• The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
• I have hit someone with a dead fish. (HAHAHHAHA)
• I have written/read erotic stories.
• I am compulsively honest.
• I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
• I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
• I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
• I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
• I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
• I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
• I dislike milk.
• I obsessively wash my hands.
• I always carry that something significant around with me.
• Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
• I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped. (LOLOL)
• I often sing whenever I can, and I'm good at it too.
• I have experienced some type of traumatic abuse in my lifetime.
• I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.
• I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
• I love Harry Potter.
• My parents are not together.
• I don't believe in love.
• I hate people who walk incredibly slow.
• I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
• Sometimes I don't shower before work. (When I'm having a flu or extremely sick)
• To me, procrastination is like a disease!
• I want to sleep now.
• I enjoy watching two guys kissing each other.
• I am a typical Gemini born.
• The more I searched the less I found.
• As a child, I was a huge crybaby.
• I'm feeling alone very fast.
• I'm living in a fairytale and I'm the noble princess who saves the day!
• I always have to spell my (real) name.
• I want to die in my sleep. (In the future duh)
• I have a strange laugh.
• If they let me, I can sleep 12 hours in a row.
• I wish I could transform myself into a boy every now and then.
• I dance in the rain and don't feel like a fool.
• I have a favorite stuffed animal that I will not ever get rid of.
• I can get jealous easily!
• My computer and hard drive are pretty much my most prized possessions.
• I'm on at least two types of medication.
• Provided with snacks, I could eat the whole day and not stop.
• I believe in the End of the World and that it's nearing.
I would love to live in another country after I get married.

Not going to tag anybody.

Shit I'm feeling very restless. It's good to have a nap once ain a while but 3 hours of nap make me feel restless everytime. DARNNN. Lots of things to do, little time to complete.

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20080710 ;

7/10/2008 11:13:00 PM

Blogging just for the sake of the 100 questions.

The 100 things about me!

1 Birthdate? 21st July 1990.
2 Place of birth? Singapore.
3 Blood type? 0
4 Height? 162-14cm.
5 Weight? Oops. OOPSSSS.
6 Shoe size? 8-9
7 Work? Study? Studying
8 Childhood nickname? Beijing Roast Duck. Duck.
9 Average hours you sleep in a day? 7-8 hours
10 Time you go to bed? Usually around 12.30am. Weekends.. 2-3am
11 Any siblings? 2 elder brothers
12 Eyesight – Short-sighted. High degree. Will become blind without my spectacles/contact lens.
13 What languages do you speak? English. Chinese. A little of Teochew and Korean.
14 What languages would you like to speak? Would like to master Korean first.
15 Nickname on Messenger? qii.
16 What do you collect? Movie tickets, nice plastic bags, cards, idols' photos.
17 Model of handphone you are using? That's a very good question. I always forget the model of my handphone. Or RATHER I don't even know what's the model. LOL. Sony Ericsson. Don't bother to check it online -.-
18 What is on your shopping list? Wallet wallet wallet!
19 Favourite t-shirt brand? 61 degress. From Batam HAHAHA
20 Favourite cut of jeans? As long as it's comfortable.
21 Favourite fashion designer? -
22 Favourite clothing label? -
23 Favourite shoe label? -
24 Favourite bag label? -
25 Most dominant colour in your wardrobe? Probably... bright green?
26 Most worn-pair of shoes? $3.90 (or $4.90?) yellow slippers bought with Atq.
27 Favourite shampoo? Pantene.
28 Favourite conditioner? Pantene.
29 Favourite bath product? Ginvera? Is that the correct spelling?
30 Favourite facial product? Silkpro
31 Favourite cosmetics? Fasio
32 Favourite art movement? Hmm.. probably abstract.
33 Favourite artist? Constantin Brancusi. LOL.
34 Favourite gallery? -
35 Favourite cold drink? Coke.
36 Favourite hot drink? Milo
37 Favourite flavour of ice-cream? Hazelnut
38 Favourite cuisine? Chinese cuisine is always the besttttttt.
39 Favourite sandwich? With ham and egg.
40 Favourite cake? Tiramisu from Secret Recipe YAY.
41 Favourite chocolate? Kinder Brueno <3<3<3<3
42 Favourite fast food? KFC! It's finger linkin' good~
43 Favourite sushi? Crab mayonnaise!
44 Favourite breakfast? Bread + Fried Ham + Mayonnaise + Chilli + Egg with a cup of tea. WONDERFUL
45 Spaghetti – Normal spaghetti?
46 Beef – Oops no beef for me.
47 Restaurant you frequent most? Probably.. Sakura? Omg the thought of sambal kangkong............. . . . . <3
48 Best dining experience? I enjoy most of my dinners.
49 Worst dining experience? Essential Blues. Nightmare omg. OH.MY.GOD.
50 Favourite book? Johnny Angel by Danielle Steel. I still remember the story.
51 Favourite movie? Transformers!
52 Favourite artist writer? -
53 Favourite actors? Jo Insung, So Jisub, Jang Geunsuk.
54 Favourite actresses? Yoon Eunhye, Jeon Jihyun, Sung Yuri.
55 Favourite record? Erm... Dongbangshinki's 1st Japanese album.
56 Favourite singers? Zhou Jielun, Xiao Jingteng, Lee Hyori?
57 Favourite bands? DONGBANGSHINKI, Bigbang, Shinee, Shinhwa.
58 Favourite lyrics? Currently its.. "Terima Kasih Cinta" It means "Thank you my love."
59 Favourite TV show? Currently it's.. We got married! YAYYYY <3
60 Favourite newspapers? Oops I don't remember what it's called. The one you get for free at Mrt stations. OH IT'S "My Paper"
61 Favourite magazine? It's Seventeen now.
62 Favourite flower? Sunflower
63 Favourite animal? Dog
64 Favourite country? KOREA.
65 Favourite street (in your country)? ... No idea
66 Favourite street (overseas)? Nagoya. The one with my old house.
67 Favourite sport? Badminton
68 Scariest movie? Shutter. DARN.
69 Funniest movie? Kungfu Panda!
70 Favourite leisure activity? Singing.
71 Favourite public transport? Bus.
72 Favourite weather? Drizzling
73 Dream honeymoon destination? Somewhere where my husband and I would NEVER meet someone we know. -.-
74 Computer you use? Macbook <3
75 Wallpaper on your computer? (Currently) 萧敬腾. LOL. (LOL IT'S THE SAME ANSWER AS MY TANG JIE)
76 Screen saver on your computer? Dongbangshinki photos' folder.
77 How many hours on the internet a day? Woah. As long as I' using my computer which is.. at least 5 hours?
78 Favourite blog? Other than mine.. Atq's!
79 Favourite news site? Channel 8 -.-
80 Favourite site? Currently it's.. popseoul
81 First pet? Hamster
82 Favourite cartoon from childhood? Ultraman! (Is that a cartoon?)
83 Favourite toy from childhood? Power ranger's sword
84 What makes you smile? My boys' smiles.
85 What makes you cry? Memories, shows.
86 Which celebrity would you like to be? Sung Yuri HEHEHE
87 What colour would you be if you are a crayon? Yellow <3
88 If you can go back in time, which period would you want to be in? Joseon Dynasty to meet Honggildong and Hwangjinyi. Oops Honggildong is fictitious character >.<
89 If you can have your own business, what would you venture into? Selling Idol's stuffs.
90 What TV program would you like to go on? We got married. Pair up with Yunho HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. And maybe.. Family. YESH I love Lee Hyori YESH YESH YESH.
91 How satisfied are you with your current situation? CURRENT. Hate it cause I still have to read a book and complete my assignment due today. WTH.
92 What would you rather be doing if you have a choice? Go to SM entertainment and be a trainee there.
93 The most impt thing tt has happened in your life? Being Zhuang Yaqi.
94 What do you think you’ll be doing 5 years down the road? Probably in Korea, working by then. And.. maybe I'll be in a steady relationship with my boyfriend?
95 Most desired now? To finish reading the book in 1 minute
96 Biggest worry now? Assignment tomorrow oh darn.
97 Most unforgettable incident? Currently it's.. me falling in the bus yesterday.
98 New year resolution? To be more focus.
99 Your motto in life? Try your best in everything or else you'll regret in the future.
100 Who do you want to answer “100 Things About Me”? Anyone who happens to read this? And let me TAG some people:
Atq
Dolly
Samantha
Ahling
Fattybombom
Yunho
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It's 12.05am. I'm going to wake up at 8.30am tomorrow to read my book. DARN DARN DARN DARN DARN.

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7/10/2008 12:12:00 AM

I'm currently looking at my secondary friends' profiles and I'm tearing up. I wonder why. It's been a really bad day today. I fell in the bus while I'm on the way to Orchard with Dolly. Went all the way to Orchard just to get a book from Kinokuniya and Borders but they're all out of stock. Dolly even went to other book stores to check it out for me but the book is not available. Have to chiong CG and shot list tomorrow. Have to borrow the book from Fat's friend and do my speed reading. I hate doing stuffs on the very last minute but I don't bother to change, even after 1 and a half year of NP life.

I think I need to go back to the Secondary School time. Even for just 5 minutes. I need a break. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. Breakdown? Mood swing? Seriously no idea. I miss my friends. I miss everyone in class 4/3. I want to meet up with Min, Alan, Yada and Jun. I really miss you guys. If you guys happened to read this post, please give me a hug once you see me. Do rebut if I happened to scold you guys because I tend to be forgetful sometimes. Just a hug from each of you will definitely helps. I

Omg emo emo emo. I don't like being emotional. I need to vent out. Thanks Ashraf I wonder why your timing is always that good. You will always be talking to me when I need to vent out my emotions.

I wonder why.

I'm. Really. Not feeling good. I need to sleep in order to start my day well tomorrow. I was thinking of not meeting Yada and the others for dinner tomorrow cause I'm really busy. But argh. I want to see Josiah in his new hairstyle!

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20080702 ;

7/02/2008 11:55:00 PM

329 Posts, last published on Jun 16, 2008

2 weeks since my last post. Got really lazy to post nowadays and I wonder whyyyyyy. It was a really long day for me today. Went to school at 9am and reached home at 9pm. WONDERFUL.

I'm still uploading all the photos I'm intending to blog. It's going to be a very very very long post I swear. Don't complain to me saying that your internet explorer hanged just because of my blog DON'T. IT'S NOT MY FAULT IT'S MY SISTER'S FAULT. Oops do I even have a sister to begin with? .... Heading for Batam tomorrow so I decided to post before the post gets longer and longer. Think the next post will be flooded with Batam photos WOOOOLALA.

Got tagged by DOLLY TAY 1 week ago and I finally decided to do this.

Q: If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Standing on the stage performing with Dongbangshinki.

Q: What will you dream wedding be like?
Some cool places. No idea where -.-

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
Yes. Although I'm quite sure I'll be in the media industry line but.. yes still a little.

Q: What's the best thing that ever happened to you?
Having such a nice family and wonderful friends.

Q: Which is more blessed? loving someone or being loved?
Being loved by someone who loves you. Oh stupid hahahahha.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
when I think it's time to give up/when I realised that actually someone who deserves being loved more than him

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
too bad then. pretend nothing happened.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
just recently. oh darn assignment and darn I really don't like lowest common multiple.

Q: Is being tagged fun?
ya not bad LOL.

Q: How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
28 years old lady. Probably married with 2 kids?

Q: Who are currently most important to you?
My family.. Friends. People who I'll miss.

Q: What kind of person do you think is the person who tagged you?
She is my tallest friend. A very random person. She's a stone and she enjoys stonning.

Q: Would you be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich. get married the second day once I'm rich HEHEHE.

Q: What have you always wanted to do but never did?
Dance. OOPS

Q: Whats the first thing you do every morning?
Turn off the alarm in my handphone.

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
Depends.

Q: If you had a chance to meet one of your idols/heroes, who would it be?
Omg Yunho baby please. PLEASE.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
Friends who treat me as friends.

Q: Do you have a pet?
Nope.

Q: What type of friends do you dislike?
Friends who call you friends but think likewise actually.

Q: 8 people im tagging?
whoever who reads my blog DO IT!

18th June
Went to Haji Lane with Atq and Dolly. Dolly's first trip, my second trip, Atq's duno-which trip. People who know Atq and Dolly might have seen these pics for at least 2 times hehehehexxx.

Just for Alan.

HOT GUY OMG MY TYPE LIKE TOTALLY.

I thought it was a fake bird initially.

It was raining for a short period of time. So we went to this shop to try the clothes on. Dolly bought a vest which I find it extremely nice woohoooooo. Headed over to Starbucks after that.

Giant thinks she looks like 12 years old. I really think she's so much more better than me when it comes to JOKE.

Took the bus back home with Atq. Dolly was on her way to meet her FRIENDS.

OMG big hand!

19th - 21st June
Photography camp! Slacked a lot with Atq but overall I find the camp alrighttt.

LOVE IN THE SKYY <3 Got this shot because I moved a little when I'm shooting the sky at night.

Yes one of my favourite shots from Atq.

Nice sunrise.

22nd June
BITCHES GATHERING! We went to Sakura for EXTREMELY DELICIOUS LUNCH YES YES YES and then karaoke session~

Taken by Fattybombom.

I THINK Denise doesn't know she's in the frame.

WHERE'S MY FACE WHERE WHERE WHERE.

28th June
Out with F7F to celebrate Alan's birthday~

Omg this band is really hot. The Goodfellas. Great harmony and I really like the main vocalist's voice! Found out that his name is Ghaz. When they performed Jason Mraz "I'm Yours" the first thing that came into my mind was to record it and show Giantqah. Didn't regret doing that cause I've been watching it like everyday now HEHEHE.

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Very addicted to this boy recently. 蕭敬騰. 你能被發掘真的是太好了．謝謝老天爺，讓你擁有那聽了就讓人感動的嗓子．被你迷倒了！！！

The cute and innocent side.

Trying to be cool.

With your ponytail ZOMG HOT.

You know I can't stand it when guys are playing instruments seriously.

{credits:baidu}

YAYY Batam batam. Shopping shopping shopping better have stuffs for me to buy or else I burn the whole shopping mall!

To-do list:

1. Get a wallet.
2. More T-shirts. T-shirts are NEVER enough for me.
3. Go the arcade there and play HaHaHahhahahsdhaudhaisd.
4. PANTS! Depends -.-
5. Probably get a jacket if possible?
6. Find Atq's Hot Pink shirt/nerdy spectacles.
7. Shoes?
8. Eat EAt EAT.
9. Take photos.
10. Abuse the cat which is named PUSS. I wonder how fat it is now.
11. Speak more Teochew there.

Omg going cock-eyed soon. When this happens, it means my time is UP.
I.
HAVE
TO
SLEEP.

ZAIJIAN.
ANNYEONG.
SAYONARA.
GOODBYE.

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